Saturday, December 31, 2005

goodbye 2005

I've been putting this off all day long. Its now 5pm so if Im going to have a New Years eve post I'd better get it done. I started by reviewing some of my posts from July when I started this blog, to now. What an amazing tool this blog is. I love that I could go back in time, click on a date and see where my head was at. I see that July 26th I was making a list of things I love, August 3rd was not a good day for me emotionaly, feeling a little better by the 9th, celebrating on the 24th, numb by Sept 1st.
So, as I said in my post yesterday Im saying goodbye to those we lost in 2005. I really don't want this to be a sad post. It is after all, New Years Eve but I do need to acknowledge loosing Justin to Colon Cancer at 25 years old, on Sept 16th 2005.
He grew up to be an awesome young man. He loved his family with his whole heart. He was a great big brother a great son, wonderful husband and father. He was the clown of all the kids. He always had a funny story.
We always laugh at the fact that he was such a skinny little knocked kneed kid. His shoulder bones would stick out in back and he could flap them like wings... He pretend like he was a butterfly and run up and down the hall.
Or he and Nick would gather up all the loose change they could find and walk up to the store and buy a half a gallon of ice cream. They'd sit outside and eat it until they were so full they couldn't eat any more. They then took some firecrackers and stuck it in the carton of ice cream and lit them -poof! ice cream all over the place... oh joy! fun times :-) a million fun stories.
He always had one. I cant wait to see him again cause I know he's probably got some good ones saved up to tell me that he didn't want to get in trouble for.
This is Justin and Natalie taken inside the Olive Garden in March 2004.
I used this picture because at this time we didn't know the extent of his cancer. It was when he returned home from this visit that he finally went to the Doctor and all of our lives changed forever.
So tomorrow we're going to start a brand new year, but its going to be a year without you in it Justin. We wont forget you though. You'll live on in your beautiful daughter and in the hearts of your family. I love you and I miss you Justin. Save those stories for me cause I know you've got some good ones and I want to hear them all. You won't get in trouble, I promise :-)

Happy New Year!

Friday, December 30, 2005


Winding down 2005 and I wanted to close out just like they do on Entertainment tonight, by saying goodbye to those we lost this past year.
I’ve devoted many blog entries this past year to Justin. As a matter of fact, Justin was the sole reason I started blogging, I used it as a way to get my feelings down. I’ll talk more about Justin in my entry tomorrow.
But todays entry is dedicated to another loss we had in 2005, my buddy Murphy.
Murphy was my parents yellow lab. He was born on the 4th of July 13 years ago. Murphy had horrible arthritis in his legs and hips cause from countless hours charging down the stairs on my parents back deck as we tossed the tennis ball into the yard for him. His last years were so painful but Dad could not bear to put him down. As a last resort the vet tried to do surgery to help with the pain but it didn’t work. He couldn’t walk at all for his last few days. They finally allowed the vet to put him to sleep.
For Christmas this year I made a scrapbook of family pictures for my parents. The final page of the album was dedicated to Murphy.
So this ones for you Murphy...I hope your chasing that tennis ball up there somewhere!

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Christmas eve is already here?

This month has blown by me, the entire month is a blurr.
Next year, Im going to slow down enough to enjoy it. Im making that my new years resolution already!!!
Today is the first day Ive been able to sit and just soak in the spirit of Christmas. I can finally look around my home, see the result of all my running around and say ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I took this picture of my kitchen and decided my Christmas decorating is staying up in this room. Im soooooo loving the touches of red that I added for the season that I'm keeping them.
I wish you all a blessed Christmas. I wish you peace. I wish you health and happiness.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Its been so long

and I've been so busy.
No time to blog, but Im still here.
hustle and bustle of christmas shopping, parties and gift making.
Im proud of myself for making many of my gifts this year. I made two complete gift albums for family. On one hand I can hardly wait to give these gifts. Im so excited to see their reaction to them. On the other hand, I love the albums sooooo much I don't want to give them away.
I can hardly stand to part with a card much less a whole album.
It sure makes Christmas more exciting when you love the gifts your giving. I stress so much over each and every one. I returned two gifts I'd bought already because I had second thoughts about them being perfect for the person I was planning on giving them to.
Oh well, soon it will be over and I can relax!

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

A day to remember...

It took the President less than six minutes to read his speech on December 8, 1941. The opening phrase, "Yesterday, December 7,1941 - a date which will live in infamy -- The United States was suddenly and deliberately attacked by naval and air forces of the Empire of Japan." would later be regarded as the most famous phrase ever uttered by an American President.

Several years ago on our first trip to Oahu’ Hawaii, it was more important to me to visit Pearl Harbor than just about anywhere else. I really wanted to go there, to see it, imagine how it looked and felt. Im not sure why I felt so strongly about it. While we were there they were filming the movie with Ben Affleck and Cuba Gooding Jr.
I’ve never been anywhere that touched me so deeply as the memorial of the U.S.S. Arizona. You are told from the beginning that this is a shrine but as soon as you step foot on the memorial it hits you like a ton of bricks, truely.
Just a few things to imagine…there were over 183 Japanese aircraft in the first wave of bombing. An hour later, another 170 aircraft were launched. Can you imagine that many aircraft at in the air at once, then having the second wave hit? Unreal.

This is the final resting place for 1,102 crewmen of the Arizona. Only 75 bodies were recovered, the remainder are entombed with the ship still. As you stand there, looking over the side of the memorial, small bubbles of oil still rise to the surface. There were over 2,300 people killed this day, over 1,000 injured.

The third section of the memorial is the shrine room. The room contains the names of all those killed on the Arizona and their names are engraved on a marble wall.
Nothing strikes you like reading these names. Brothers, fathers, entire families. You can see a list of names here.

It was believed that US ships between San Francisco and Oahu’ were also torpedoed. My Great Uncle Herb was on one of those ships. My Dad has told me stories of how they didn’t know if Uncle Herbs ship was hit or not. Apparently they high tailed it back to the states as soon as they heard of the bombing but it was weeks and weeks before my Dads family knew if Herb was safe or not. They were not allowed to contact their families like they do now. Dad said they had to sneak messages into the military base to find out if Herb was safe. My Dad remembers sitting in the car, in the dark outside the military fence waiting for the guard to pass. Then they flashed the headlights and my Uncle came out of hiding. They were only able to speak to him for a few minutes, then he had to go agian. They didn't see him again for many years. I cant imagine the worry of these families. What a horrible time.
So, remember them today. They were all heroes. The soldiers and their families.

Friday, December 02, 2005

its snowing!

its so rare to have snow in the pacific northwest, especially
this early in the year. Last night we received several inches and we're expecting several more tonight. By Sunday I think its suppose to warm up so this cold spell will hopefully be over for the next several months. A little snow goes a long way with me. Pretty if you can stay at home...not so much if you have to get out and drive in it at 6:00am.
I took a few pics before I left for work this morning. Not the best pictures because it was still very dark outside. By the time I got home from work I could see that several branches had snapped under the weight of the snow :-( On this first picture you can see the branches bent over. Paul will have some cleanup to do with the chainsaw once the snow all melts.
Last weekend I'd strung some christmas lights around the deck and they look so pretty under the snow. It just glows. I think there's nothing more beautiful and more peaceful than looking at Christmas lights in the snow. The snow seems to muffle all sound and it seems so much quieter. Its beautiful and I plan to enjoy it all weekend, then wish it gone :-)

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Thankful Thursday 3

My first thankful thursday 3 post! yippee.
I thought about this some last night and this afternoon.
Its a tough day to be thinking about what to be thankful for. At work today we had some layoffs. They say they're trying to realign the staff to the business for next years budget. I know why these things happen right before Xmas, but it still sucks.
Some very nice people that I've worked with for many many years lost their jobs today, without warning. People that have worked here for over 15 years. Sr. VP's even...however, Im thankful it was not me. So...

#1 front and center on my thankful list is that it was not me.
That feels kind of crappy to be thinking that way, but thats human nature I guess. Im so very sorry it happened to you, really I am...thank god it wasn't me.

#2 its sort of snowing. Im hoping it holds off a little longer until I drive home, then I hope it just dumps like crazy so I don't have to come in tomorrow. Im thankful that it isn't snowing harder yet.

#3 I returned the dress I bought to go to the christmas party this year, because I decided I want to wear slacks and a blitzed out top instead. Im thankful for this becauuuuse...because I'm happy about making that decision to wear slacks that I already own and I just need to buy a pretty top that I can probably wear again...not another black evening dress that I'll never wear again.